Replaced my Neato Signature Pro with a BotVac D85

After my third faulty Signature Pro, I told the store I wanted to have my money back. And I decided to get a Neato BotVac D85 instead.

I still believe this is a good brand of robotic vacuum cleaners. So far the BotVac D85 has been working fine. And I really hope it will keep doing that.

It has cleaned my apartment once or twice without a single stop. The times it has stopped it has been my own fault, forgetting a cable on the floor or something like that.

More postcards that I put in frames

I went out today and bought some frames. I had a postcard that I bought in Berlin. And four ones from Japan.

I am quite sure I bought one one those tsunami pictures in Japan. I think so anyway. But I can't find it so maybe I never bought one.

I also found some stones at home that I found in Jordan. And maybe some of them are from Israel. Not sure which one I foubd where. Also a bracelet that I think I found in Jordan.

Shopping round, TP cables, icecream Sushi Etc.

So  I went on a shopping round. No matter how tired I was. I needed an extensioncoord for my headphones. They are way too short. And always pop out when I move a little. Irritating.

Also bought 40meter of TP cable to see if any of the other phone jacks works better with my ADSL. 0.5mbit upload is unbearable. ADSL modem is supposed to be in the first teleplug. And I rhink it is according to how it looks wired on the inside. But there is a mess of wires. Sp I am not completly sure. I do remember tjat it didn't matter which plug you used as long as therr were no other phones attached. And I have no other phones. The phone I have is connected to the ADSL modem (IP-telephone I assume). But there has to be something wrong. I have never had 0.5mbit upload speed. And when I am uploading it strangles the entire line (no duplex?). I hate having cables all across my apartment. But if it works well. I Hope I can attach it to the wall corners and that 40meters is enough.

Also bought sushi from another place this time. I liked this place much better. More ginger. They also has nice shopsticks that I bought.

Bought more tiramisu icecream. And some other stuff.

I was looking at the Lego Mindstorms set. It looks like fun. But I think it is a little bit too expensive. And for some reason it seems more difficult to get extra parts now than when it was new. Motors and sensors and things like that.
Anyway. Can't decide if I want that or a PS4 mgs5 special edition. Or a new fancy more expensive oscilloscope. I just know. I never going to spend much time with it.

And I need weeks or months on things like that. And I often worry that I dont have months to stay this healthy. I worry alot. And it sometimes brings me to tears. That there is all these stuff that I want to do. But I don't know when my life is going to be taken away from me.

The more I think about that game I want to make. The more imposssible it seems to be realised. Same thing with my electronics projects. Maybe I am stupid and expecting things to just work for me without any struggle or problems arriving along the way. Maybe I just want things to run smoothly for me.

Like with my objparser program. I got it to a state where it can read data and render it. And it works fine. But then I look at the specs on the OBJ format. And there are soo many things that it can hold. And I wish I could make it so that it can handle everyrhing

And then I dont know how to make things animate in 3d games. Do they really program the skeleton stuff and everyhing. Using 100's of models to animate like you would do if it was in 2d seems "wrong" when working with 3d.. how can I possibly write a program for movement. It has to be really simple... and I never got a good grip on collition detection. Not even in 2d games.... oh so much work.

Japan postcards are lost and then found

Two of four nice postcards I wrote about here are lost.
I found one in a drawer, and the other one is framed and stands on the window sill here next to my computer. But I can't remember where the other two are.

And I cannot understand why I have separated them and put them in different places, one in a drawer and the other two somewhere else. That does not make sense to me. In that case, something must be wrong. That makes me very nervous.

I have problems with some stuff now, like keeping track of time. For example being asked "when did did you first feel this pain?" or "how long have this been going on?", questions doctors usually asks... It's almost like I have no comprehension of time. At-least I cannot always remember such things. Sometimes I can. And maybe the medication makes it worse. I don't know.

I got really sad that I cannot remember where I put the postcards. Since I wanted to put frames on them, I wanted to keep them. And then things starts spinning in my head like, "Maybe I had them in my hands and accidentely threw them out with the garbage"

It's not the first thing I've lost. My tweezers that I use for my tiny electronics components, tiny 0302 capacitors, they are really tiny.

Very tiny, I need some very sharp tweezers to pick them up.

I thought I wrote about my lost tweezers in the blog also. But I couldn't find that post either :| Can't find a blog post that I remember I had written, hehe, yeah that too. Or maybe I never wrote in my blog that I lost my tweezers.

I used the search functionality and searched "pincette" and there was no blog post with that word. And then I thought, I have always written "pincette" in english. Then I looked in a dictionary, and there is no English word "pincette". It's called tweezers ofcourse... Is it "ofcourse" or "of course"?
My firefox spelling feature tells me that it is "of course". Firefox also tells me that pincette is a pipette.

So, tweezers is like the word scissors. It's like they are two.

-"I need a tweezer" seems to be wrong according to auto-spelling.
-"I need a tweezers" sounds very wrong in my ears.
-"I need a pair of tweezers" it is then?
 
I bought 4 new pincettes, I mean tweezers. A little bit upset about this, because a couple of weeks earlier they sold them for 1/5th of the price.
I was looking after my tweezers so much that I had lost my motivation to do any electronics stuff at all since then. Maybe a week or two later I found my old tweezers. I had put it in a very strange place in my small supply room. Mostly filled with boxes with old games and oh *sigh*, so much stuff. The pincette, I mean tweezers was lying on top of a VHS player.

I have a special place for my tweezers, it's where they ALWAYS should be when I don't use them.

This very nice Hobgoblin beer jar, pot? The is where I keep
my tweezers and one philips screwdriver, desoldering pump, cutter,
ballograf propelling pencils and pens, and other marker pens for writing
on dvd's and things like that.

If they are not there, they should be somewhere else on my desktop because I am using them for something. If they are not on the desktop, then they are lost.

I probably put my postcard in "a safe place where I cannot lose them", or where I "can easily see them and find them". I have a little plastic box with things that are important to me, where I put things I don't want to lose. The postcards were not in that box.

And I cannot understand why I found just one, when I assume I must have kept all three together. And while writing this post, that must have taken hours to write, I started thinking about making food and this idea popped into my head, and

lo and behold, I had put two of them on my fridge!

Mystery solved.

Now I feel a little bit stupid, looking for them everywhere. But that is how it is sometimes, you're looking for something that is right in front of your eyes.

That made me think of when me and my friend arrived in Tokyo. And I used this really good app that I can recommend to travelling people, MAPS.ME. I had marked out the hotel at the map. And the GPS said that we should be just close to the hotel. "It is right here" I said, and I turned around and around, to see if there was a sign on any of the buildings with the name of the hotel... We looked around for some time, probably looking very confused. It turns out, we were standing just outside of the entrance to the hotel.

I wonder if the people at the counter inside saw us, wondering what we were doing, looking at our phones and walking around in circles just at the entrance

It was very nice being greeted with "Daniel-san" when I came in.
Later some day during our stay I felt I needed to tell them something, and they spoke very poor English, and I was *sigh*-ing a lot during the talk. I was trying to use a translator app on my phone, trying to explain that we were going away to Kyoto for 2 days, but we are keeping the hotel room with most of our stuff, we are still paying for that time we're gone, and we'll be back.
When I said
-"We are going to Kyoto tomorrow"
He replied
-"You are going to Tokyo?"

But we were in Tokyo, in Asakusa. I didn't understand what he meant. And he didn't understand what I meant.

Maybe my friend was right, we didn't need to say anything to them. It would just mess things up instead.

I really hope my translator app didn't translate into something mean or bad :| because it didn't seem to work very well when translating from Japanese to Swedish. And I noticed they stopped calling me "Daniel-san". Hope I wasn't one of those troublesome guests or I had accidentally called them something really mean from my translator app.

But I thought, since we leave the key at the counter every morning we leave the hotel, maybe they'll be worried if we don't come back to the hotel one night. Maybe we should say something. At last they seemed to understand what we meant anyway. But I wasn't "Daniel-san" anymore. Maybe I am overreacting :)

Fika: Found some other stuff and thinking back at my Japan trip.

While I was looking for my phone charger I found some some other stuff that I've forgotten about.

I had bought this coaster from Gundam café in Tokyo. I think I bought it in Odaiba at the Gundam store in Diver City.

It is in rubber so it doesn't glide around, that is good.

Fika with coaster in action. I bought the mug at Manga Museum in Kyoto

Also in Diver City I ate at the coolest sushi place I've been to, Premium Sushi. And I also went to the only maid café in Diver City. My travel friend never wanted to visit a maid café again. So it was the only one I went to, it was quite small. But I put on bunny ears and then they started to sing one of their songs, that was  quite fun :) I regret not buying the album, lol :)

Maybe it meant something that I put on those bunny ears, because a group of young men cheered at me, lol :)

My friend never wanted to go to a maid café again because he thought they they were "too loud". So that was boring, I think the maid café's was quite fun. I wanted to go to one of the bigger and most famous ones in Akihabara.

Another friend told me to stay away from maid cafés because "they're prostitues". Never heard such stupid prejudicement before.

Yeah, OK, maybe he could be right, Maybe he had read somewhere online, that maybe there is a maid café somewhere in some ghetto in the outskirts of Tokyo where the Yakuza roam there is a maid café with prositutes. But that every single maid café, and especially in the middle of Akihabara? I don't think so.

And by the way, I don't want to live my life being afraid of everything. That has always been a problem with my group of friends. EVERYTHING is dangerous.

It was the same when I went to Amsterdam, someone told me "Stay away from red light district"... And my reaction was like, *huh* ?
I think the red light district was the first place I went to the first day I was there, and I didn't even think about it, because families with their children went through Bloedstraat, and that didn't seem like a big problem!?
I was there during daytime though, and there were some half naked ladies in the windows. Yeah, OK, so?
 I have for a long time hated that I have such a ultra boring circle of friends. Absolotely everything is dangerous to do, except for the "leader" who thinks that everything is "misarable" to do. The leader of the group can lead everyone into this "dangerous" situation in a way so they can feel safe. I don't know how he does it, but appearently they trust him more. They can never see me as a leader. This friendship has had the worst influence on me, because sometimes I felt I missed to do so many things I always wanted to do, because I always needed to do them alone. While they never needed to do anything alone.

And I have wanted to end the relationship completly many many times, without success. But they don't really seem to take me very serious when I say so. They just come over and visit whenever they want to anyway, and that is when they got time over for me. I, however is always exoected to have time

I can have fun with them sometimes, but we have such different interests.

I went to the Roger Waters concert in Globen alone, I think that was the first time I decided to do something I wanted to and not expect anyone else to follow. The leader always gets people to follow him to places when he wants to. I can't do that.

But I am so glad that I fought myself out of those handgloves and prison uniform that it felt I had for such a long time that I spent time with them. And went to Amsterdam OHM2013 hacker festival 2013, the coolest thing I ever been to, and I went on my dreamtrip Japan in 2014.
One of my friends did follow me to Japan and followed like a ghost on my trip that I had planned out, I don't think he had any other agenda than to visit Akihabara and look at some arcade machines and accessories, or Akahabra or how the h*ll the pronounced it, always screaming it out everytime he could read it on the subway maps or they said in the speakers. I so often felt embarred around him, I often thought "please please, behave and shut up". He didn't even know what Shibuya was, I had to explain that several times. And I got the feeling that he wasn't really impressed about the place as I was. He didn't have a clue about Tokyo/Japan and it's famous places.

I wanted to eat japaneese food and spend time in traditional japaneese places, however, I didn't want to start any trouble and fights durin the trip so I had to suffer through watching him eat McDonalds over and over. He often asked me "But shouldn't you eat food?"... In my mind I thought "This is not food", out of my my mouth came "I want to eat japaneese food when I am in Japan", in which he would interrupt and/or not listen or not understand.

I refuse to eat McDonalds when I am traveling. I want local food. But that was appeantly "dangerous". I did get to eat at a nice little place in Kyoto once, but I also had to listen to the constant complaints on how difficult it was to sit on the floor. I myself got nosebleed when I sat down, I'm not either used to siting down and eat. But I guess it is something you get used to,

And the Hostel we stayed on in Kyoto didn't impress him much. He slept underneath the futon, on the floor with the matress on top because he tought it was cold. I woke up in the morning because he had set the AC to 50 degrees celsius *sigh*

We woke up very early in the morning and asked if we could leave as early as possible, He never was in such a hurry to get away from anything any other part of the trip. Escpecially not that day when he slept till 12 in our ordinary hotel room. And I was just feeling, f*ck, we are wasting time now, but still didn't really know what to do that day. Most of my plans was done,  except going to Nikko which I wanted to do. But I never got a serious motivation back from him, he never helped motivate to get out and see things. I had to be the driving force, and I never had a problem with that, I don't mean that. It was just some days that I wish he could have helped a little.

I just said, "No, we are going to stay here for a while and have a morning coffee and socialize a little with the people downstairs". Because we only stayed one night at that very nice hostel.

He wasn't in a hurry after visiting the Manga Museum, when we had limited time left to go to the Fushimi Inari before the last train back to Tokyo left, then he wanted an hour long fika for some reason. Whenever he asked what we were going to do next I had to explain, I could say "Fushimi Inari shrine, it is a cool place", and get a response like "Fishamisha what?". And I just got this irritation building up inside of me. At the same time feeling that we don't have time to relax just now, but still shut up about it because I didn't want to start trouble.

I had e-mailed him my entire plan for this trip, I had it written down in a document. All the places we would visit and in what order to get as much as possible, And I just knew that he had not even looked at it at all. Or maybe if he had looked at it a little, he had not studied it in detail. We always talked how we both so badly wanted to go to Japan, I actually thought he had some interest in Japan and different famous places.

Sometimes I wish I went alone anyway. I loved that hostel, (Oh, I don't remember the name of it now but I can look it up later). It was close to Nijo Temple. And the people working there spoke perfect english, and I even think they spoke Mandarin from what I could hear.

When I was in a healtyh state, I always wanted to go to Germany. To Mosel and the beautiful scenery around there. I was there when I was 11 or 12, and always wanted to visit it again. Now I don't really feel like it anymore.

But when I presented the idea, it was "Do they have McDonalds", I don't know. So it was a definitive no. But they do have very nice scenery and very nice places to sit and drink beer and eat good food. Something that is appriciated otherwise. But not when the idea comes from me, only when it comes from the leader.

I shouldn't really complain on my friends. We had some really fun times together. But I am very very different from them. I don't really fit in. I am more positive, they're more negative. And since they have the right to complain about everything, about my games being to complicated or my music being boring or my interests being boring etc etc etc, I don't even remember how much I've heard about me or my ideas being "misarable" and boring.. So I think I got to complain on them as mush as I want to right now.

And I kind of made it sound like I hated my trip to Japan. I didn't, it was one of the best things I have ever done in my life. And I am so glad I did it before I got sick. Who would now I would get this sick really.

Sometimes I wonder why I got the impulse to do the Japan trip in 2014, just before I did the biopsy in my cheekbone. Really, the day after I came home from Japan I did that. It could just have been a random impulse that happen to come right in time, but being agnostic, I'm not quite certain about that.

I also found these nice postcards, I had written adresses on all of them but never written anything on them. I never sent them. I'll hang some of them on my fridge I think. Especially the two bottom ones.

Postcards that I never sent.