Strange night sleep

So, I got all the medecine I need yesterday. I was not really in a good condition to drive. I was too tired.
I went to Mediamarkt to look for a new SD Cardreader and a usb cable for my cellphone. But it was closed, I was there around 20:45 


I feel I can fall asleep any moment now,

Anyway, I made breakfast. This morning.

**but I fell asleep while writing**

Feels like I must have slept for about 30-45minutes. My tea is cold. But the sandwishes was still soft and taste good.

When I woke up tonight, I had a really bad pain in my knees. I couldn't understand why my knees hurt.

**fell asleep again**

Anyway, I took some painkillers for the knees, OxyNorm and Alvedon, and I think that worked. But it took some time.

But I woke up often this night anyway, the only difference from the other night is that I got Temesta and sleeping pills again. So if I wake up I take Temesta and fall asleep get really tired.
The few times I did wake up this night, I was so tired and dizzy I really had no problem going back to sleep. Unless I felt afraid or was anxious for some reason.

I have only eaten one of the sandwishes so far. This blogpost takes forever to write when I keep falling asleep like this all the time. I cannot concentrate on one thing, if I get tired and foggy in my mind.

My Neato stopped again with the message "Paused", So I just started it again by pressing resume. But it shouldn't be like that. It stopped again close to the place it always stops at....

** fell asleep again **

I think I need to eat my breakfast now. It is boring and it takes hours to write a short bloogpost like this if I am going to keep falling asleep. I even forgot what I originally wanted to write about.

I had something on my mind, but it is long gone,

Another thing I noticed this morning was that my feet are very swollen. I should keep them high the nurse said. So I will do that, and watch an anime. Cobra.
But I'll bet I can't see the whole thing, I will fall asleep.

And I got millions of flies in my apartment now, just when I am out of Raid.

My dad called and said he was coming to me today, I had no idea about that. Apperently we hade talked about him coming to me on tuesday he said.

......I can't stay awake for another second...

Neato, found stuff and more medicine

I finally found my SD Cardreader. It had just fell down and was hidden under a cable. I spent so much time looking for it.

I think I wrote about my Neato vacuum cleaner in my last post...I don't remember, anyway, this time I didn't do anything when it stopped. I just left it where it was until it's battery was drained. Now I'm gonna charge it overnight and see if it performs

Now I am watching the anime of "Two Years' Vacation", I think the anime is called "Adrift in the Pacific", but I can't find it on imdb. I'm watching a Swedish translation "Två års ferier". I kind of like old 80's anime. It is a little nostalgic, I want more.
But yes, I fell asleep during this movie too. But it was a very easy movie to follow. It kind remined me a little of Lord of the Flies.                                                                                                            
But now I have problems keeping my eyes open soon sleep,

Neato stopped again

So, somtimes it cleans the house without any stops. And sometimes it just stops for no apperent reason. This time there was no message at all, it didn't say "Paused" on the screen. It looked like it had just had canceled cleaning.

But when I pushed the button I was able to choose "Resume cleaning", so that worked.

By the way, it did say "Please empty my dirt bin" but it wasn't even full when I looked. Could that be the reason it stopped maybe. My old one often had this message, but it didn'r stop cleaning because of it.

I disabled dirt bin warning, so lets see how that works then next time.

I think it has some software bugs that needs to be fixed. But Neato Robotics seems to be very very slow with software updates.

Update:
I run it again today, and it keeps stopping for no reason.

I notice that the battery is quite low. But it doesn't warn about low battery, the leds are still green. And I can still press resume cleaning.

Maybe I should try the battery calibration thing on this one too.

Fika: Lost my cardreader

I had a very good flash-cardreader that worked well in Linux. And it could take lots of different formats, including SIM cards for some reason.

And I also usually takes photos with my phone instead of my Canon. Ofcourse, I can get better pictures with my Canon. But it's a little bit more work to transfer the image to the computer later. With my phome I just upload them to blogger immediately.

Anyway, said it before, I hate when I loose things. It is probably here somewhere  But I can't find it... grr. I always put it back in. the same place, but not this time :(

I can transfer images directly from the Camon camera to the computer. But it is so slow. The cardreader is faster for some reason, even if they're both USB 2.0

By the way, I did find my favorite pincette. So now I'ge got 5 or 6 of the. :P

I didn't feel like making coffee today. I bought one of those starbucks drinks. It tastes more like chocolate than coffee to me. It is probably packed full with sugar. And it was expensive but it tastes good!

I finished watching Beautiful Dreamer this, morning. Even if I had problems folowig the plot, it was a good movie.


I am still tired, and having problems keeping my eyes open, I am at my dekstop computer, and I fall asleep. I have to go to the couch and rest. For real.

Neato update

My robotic vacuum cleaner started at 07:00 as usual.

Still interested to see if it is going to clean everything without random stops.

So far so good.

No phone and b day yesterday

The charger for my phone died yesterday. So now I don't have a useable phone. Or atleast not a cellphone. I have an old ordinary phone plugged into the wall. Like this old telephone jack. The day when they remove these (which they probably will), it's going to cause problems for people, I know it.

A good thing about those is that they have their own separate power line, so in case of a powerfailure, the telephone might still work if the telephone power is unharmed. Or like in my case, my cellphone dies for no particulary reason and I need to call SOS Alarm.

There was a glitch somewhere in the cable for the cellphone charger, it didn't charge and all of a sudden it was starting to get really hot so I unplugged it.

I know I have the orignal charger somewhere. I bought this one because I've forgotten to bring a charger once. And it has actually worked well for many years up until now.

However, I was writing in the whatsapp chatroom with my friends. And I just told them I will probably not be in here for a while until I get a new charger.

And the resonse was just "Lol, just charge it in your computer", or something like that, immedierly assuming that I was some kind of idiot. Like, I have not thought about that before? I am an electronics engineer. I build f*ing things with USB chargers in them. I know what USB cables are.

I was just waiting for someone to say "Then build one", I think someone did just before I left.

Why do I constantly need to be lectured on technology and electronics by them. When I probably knew how things work better than them before I got a degree. I usually, 99% of the time just shut up and listen to their jaberwocky. And maybe throw in a comment to fix some errors they make, but where I usually get "lol":ed at and being told in "how things REALLY work" and being linked to some stupid page that they've seen. Because I apperently know NOTHiNG, not a single little tiny itsy bit about electronics.
I can never ever ever be taken serious in a discussion. They can speak serisouly to each other, but I have never been able to join in. Never. So shutting up and just listen to the monkeys speak is what I have to do.

When I say I don't have a charger, I really mean it, I don't. I haven't missed a detail. They started to get me angrier and angrier. And I was already really tired so I was probably more easily ticked off. I wasn't getting angry only because it was so fun for them that I got angry, but because it is quite important for me to have a working phone in case something serious happens, like bleeding to death because something happens with the tumour. They don't understand this last part very well.

I probably have a USB cable somewhere with a Micro-USB port, but was too tired running around looking for it in the middle of the night.. "but person A has a charger, you can borrow his".. for f*k sake.
I need it now! I don't need it ASAP, I need it pronto, if it's going to be useful. Not in a week.

Everything was just funny for them. Even the news is funny sometimes, even when 600 people dies in an explosion it is funny. And I am not always in the mood to play along on that.

I think I took 60mg Oxascand to calm me down. That really worked, the frustration went away. I fell asleep and I slept good. Really good.
I just woke up. Still feeling a little bit upseset.

Now I don't need to be bothered by anyone in that stupid chatroom atleast.

And I also fixed my old phone, plugged into the wall telephone jack. So, now I can use that. I think I got the message away to some important people about my phone number just before my battery died.

I kind of want to be alone actually.

I wonder if I went up and let Simson go out today... ***checked*** and nope.
He is sleeping deeply in his little hammock by the radiator.
I don't want to disturb him, or wake him up.

Now I need something for the pain in my left cheek.
And then breakfast.

State of my robotic vacuum cleaner

It cleaned this morning without any problems. :/

So,  no need to turn it in for repair then I guess.

Feel good

Although I slept longer than usual, I had a really bad night.

And a problematic stomach, and woke up sweating like I was in a steambath.

I feel pretty good right, now. But I still am not sure about what to do.
I feel good when I can forget about the cancer and concentrate on other things.


I feel like having a fika, and reading a little about simple radio transmitters/receivers.

Yes, I did work at Ericsson one summer. That was a good job.

I would like to build one where I need to wind coils myself. That would be most fun.

So I am going to do that, then play some more Rocksmith after that.

Or maybe I'll just do nothing and just keep feeling good and surfing on the web, youtube, etc...

I have some dead projects. Like this little prototype board with a BMI160 acc/gyro sensor that I don't know what to do with. First of all I just want to direct output from it to my computer via the CP2102 USB to Serial chip. But I got no clue what to use it for, and maybe that is the reason my projects usually dies.

I can easily destroy this good feeling I have now by thinking too much about all my dead projects, because. I don't know how much time I've got. And I get stressed, I want to do all the things I want to do NOW. Before it's too late.

But I need to stop thinking like that. 

ESD mat installation

Now I have it confirmed. My ESD mat installation is good as it is. And if I wanted to, I can hook up ground on the radiator.

I don't really need grounded wall outlets to make it better. I don't really need to hook up ground to my radiator either. ESD protection works the way it is intended by just having the same common ground on all equipment and the esd mat and the wrist band. There is ofcourse a 1MOhm resistor to the mat and the wristband to protect me.

But I cant help to have this feeling that I can do it much better. I hate having this feeling that it is not complete. It is not safe enough. But I am probably just paranoid over nothing.

At work we have these larger powerstrips. I would like to have that too. And from what I can remember, those powerstrips have a replacable fuse. But I'm not 100% sure. Just have this image in my memory that there is.

The only problem that needs to be fixed ASAP is at this moment my soldering iron is not connected to the same ground. Because it is in another powerstrip in another outlet. That is not good. But can be easily fixed by just connecting the two grounds together.

Deepdreaming my breakfast

I need to learn how to make a network trained with my own set of images soon. It just seems so complicated.

I'll just save this link here for reading later.

https://generateme.wordpress.com/2015/08/12/training-own-dnn-for-deep-dream/

I feel so tired today.

Update on my Neato XV Signature Pro problems

Yes, I know. I can't leave this. My brain will not leave this problem alone and delete it from my mind until I get a good understanding of what is wrong. I have to either fix the problem, or find out if it really is a broken unit.

There are two options:

1. I want to get my money back and get the Neato BotVac D85 and see how much better it is. But in that case I want it now! Not in 1 week, not in 2 weeks. But ASAP, preferably instantly. Because at any time, some day during next week, I might be hospitalized for some serious thing happening with my cancer situation. And then I can't enjoy having a new shiny vacuum cleaner to get happy over. And they don't have the D85 at NetOnNet, I have to order it in another store. I like NetOnNet, they have good customer service. Maybe they can order it, even if it is not in their line of products, I can't see that they have it on their homepage. They have the BotVac 85, but I don't know what the difference is other that it is white.


2. I find out that there is no problem with my current Neato XV Signature Pro. It is I that have been doing something wrong. Or it is a overheating problem, like I have read online. Some people say that it does random errors because of overheating, and that they have fixed it by installing heatsinks. And that does sound plausible infact, because it has been very warm weather recently. And my apartment got windows all around so that it's almost like a greenhouse in here. But I'm not going to install heatsinks, because I do not want to break my warranty.
   
   

This morning it started it's scheduled cleaning at 07:00. I was sleeping in the couch. And it sounded like it was cleaning the house normally. I could hear it go over the doorsteps and into other rooms etc. It also conveniently stopped right below me where I was lying in the couch. It had stopped on a bottle that had fell on the floor, and the Neato had the message "clear my path". Nothing really wrong with that, it was stuck with good cause. So I fixed that and resumed it's cleaning cycle.

After some time it needed to go back and charge, it was at this point it started going crazy. It went straight into walls, in the opposite direction of where the charging unit really is located. It seemed confused, it's sense of where it was located seemed to be off.

It was going around randomly, bumping around, getting "clear my path" messages. It stopped occasionally with the message that it was trying to figure out it's location. I don't remember what that message is exactly. But it does this normally, it's rotating slowly kind of examining the environment. It did this often, more often than usual. But it kept going straight into things.

I didn't want to wait for it to go around randomly like this until it found the charger. I could have done that, maybe I should have, but I didn't have patience. When it had stopped randomly at some place with a "clear my path" message, I moved it by hand closer to the charger. And pressed "okay". And it did find the charger station and went back to charging.

This was an in-the-middle-of-cleaning charging. So it would resume cleaning later.

When it had finished charging. It was at this point it started going this crazy.

It was just going round and round like this until it's battery was low. But surprisingly enough found it's way back to the charger to charge again. And when it had finished charging it just went back to do this thing again... Like in it's little brain, it doesn't know where it is located or where it is supposed to go.

If the Neato program builds up a map of the apartment, which I have understood that it is supposed to do. I think of it as a video game glitch where you get outside the map. Or activating noclip in Quake. Is this what has happened here?

I do not know. But I can go back to the store and tell them that I think this unit is faulty as well. It acts weird, it doesn't find the charger, it goes around and around on one spot (Not spot cleaning! this is scheduled normal house cleaning).

Anyway, what I have done now is that I have power cycled it. I disconnected the battery for a while and then reconnected it again. So it should have been reset, I think.

In the beginning my replacement unit had the problem that it was stopping often with the message, "House cleaning - paused". It was actually doing that less and less, the more I used it. And it did complete a few cleaning cycles without any errors.

But after the reset, this problem is now back.

Some more Google deepdream images

I just love playing around with googles deepdream images.

I really want to learn how to train my own network of images, I need a lot of images. And probably alot of CPU time. But it would be fun to try with a small system just to get it working.

Here are some recent ones that I've done. Still lots of dogs. But I like where there are other things like cars and buildings. Dogs are getting boring.

From a Dali painting

A piece of pizza

Chopped up tomatoes?

My cat Simson, or is it now my dog?

A metled icecream

Blisters in mouth and Neato

I've gotten some kind of blisters in my mouth. Maybe I have not taken care of my mouth hygiene well enough. But there is very little room left for ny tounge. So I easily bite in it.

Maybe the radiation therapy I got caused these blisters.

I notice that there are blisters on other place in my mouth aswell. On my lips.. so, mayve bad hygiene is the reason. I have been lazy brushing my teeth and use that Prontoral that I got. I'll have to start using it more often so the blisters hopefully heals

Painkillers don't really work on that sort of pain. But I have some sedative gel that I can put on. But then food doesn't taste anything.

It feels like. Next week I am not going to be able to eat food anymore if they think it is a good idea to put in tracheotomy so soon.

Thw neato was going around randomly to try and find its way back to the charger. I wonder why. It was cleaning perfectly well. Until it needed to charge. Then it was just going around randomly bumping into walls. I wonder if I had left it do this for a while. Maybe it would have found the charger again.
Because I lifted it up and moved it closer to the charger. And then it found it. I hope I didn't ruin its builtin mapping of my apartment
I really feel like getting my money back for this one and upgrade to a BotVac D85. But I don't know if my current one is faulty or not. Maybe it is possible to get money back anyway.
Also the other thing is that nobody has the BotVac D85. I have to order it. I can't decide. I kind of want is ASAP, but I am not in the mood now to do something about it.

Another thing I've been thinking about. Maybe I am badgering and going on too much on my friends about my problems with my robot vacuum cleaner and my problems with my ESD installation and grounding problems in my house. A friend always throws out these insinuant comments, or try to make fun of me in a mean way if I keep talking about something too much. All I want is some insight or good ideas. But none of my ftiends really can't help me. It's more like "put earth grounding in your butt maybe works". And then they keep talking about something else. I don't really have anyone to ask about these things, because I have never had friends with common intetests as me.
A thing that buggers me sometimes is that they never ask me any questions regarding electronics or something I might have a good understanding of  They always talk and act like they're experts in the area and I can sit there and listen to this. And just thinking, they've got every single thing wrong. I wonder how they see me, what do they think I am.

We had a talk about HDTV resolutions once. A friend had connected his Wii to a new reciever he bought so he had an HDMI cable fron that to the TV. The reciever had lots of inputs. And he was so fascinated that he had now a Wii that outputs 1080p.
So I asked, but what output does the Wii have?

And got the answer "HDMI, look for yourself, it says so on the TV". But I said that there are no Wii consoles with HDMI outputs, it is whatever output the Wii has that is copied over to a HDMI 1080p signal. The reciever only upscales the picture and renders it on a higher resolution. But no, he refused to understand this. The image was now 1080p. I don't know if I said it at the time. But think of it like this, the native resolution on your TV cannot change. The amount of pixels there are constant. If you plug it into your TV, the TV will upscale the image to its resolution. The reciever might to a better job at upscaling it to a 1080p signal. You could connect a VHS player in there, you wont really get a better image. It is going to be exactly the same thing. The reciever doesn't automatically add non existent data between the pixels that wasn't on the film in the first place. Those added pixels are just gradients between the real image data depending on what kind of resizing algorithm is used. In the end of the discussion, I was the one who was stupid and didn't understand the technology very well. So I had to be ridiculed for that.

So I think maybe people have a view on me that I don't really have a good understanding of anything. I have always been the person who is behind a few steps.
I often feel very useless.

When people do need help from me, it is always problems that they have with Windows or their Mac. Problem is that I don't use Windows. I use Linux. And I know nothing about Macs... But I always get stuck there. They wont let me go until I fixed it. I hate that. Fix it yourself, that is hoe you learn things. There is no danger in doing something wrong. Alot of people seem to be afriad of doing something wrong with their computers so that they have to leave it in for repair or something.

I don't know where I am going with this.
Maybe my point is, sometimes I feel like I am being treated in a way, that I am an amateur in my interests and my friends don't care about my opinions.

I don't really care so much if I die soon. That is one of the reasons I want to die. Is that nobody wants to listen to me.

I remember the first few weeks at my job. I was a newly graduated electronics engineer. One of the guys working there was talking constantly on and on how worthless newly graduated engineers was. That in his previous work experience had worked with people from Chalmers with these good grades... and they knew nothing.
But really. What do they expect? You can't expect a newly graduated to know much. They've been studying theoretical things and mathematics and such things. They have not yet gotten any practical experience.
But it made me feel so sad at that time.

Uhm yeah. I am getting tired again. I was hoping that maybe a dose of oxynorm would take away some pain near my left ear. And also have a positive kick.

I feel like playing a little Rocksmith. I was practising Choord 102 yester day. It was very very difficult.

Facebook can use PGP to send you encrypted e-mails

I just found out that you can add your public PGP key for encryption in your "Contact and Basic info" settings on Facebook.

So that when Facebook wants to send some e-mail, automated stuff that is sent out, or password remainders for example. The e-mail will be encrypted.

Here are some other random links about it that I googled for you.

http://techcrunch.com/2015/06/01/facebook-now-supports-pgp-to-send-you-encrypted-emails/

http://www.theguardian.com/technology/2015/jun/01/facebook-introduces-pgp-encryption-for-sensitive-emails,

http://thehackernews.com/2015/06/facebook-pgp-keys.html

Tearing apart a Residual-current device

ChipWhisperer-Lite

Something that I've totally forgotten that I ordered. I got it today.

I don't feel like doing anything with it now.

Probably going to end up as a dead and unused thing on my shelf.

Well, that is how I feel now anyway. Maybe someday I will get good use for it.

Marley's mellow mood

Now I'll try and relax with this strange random drink I bought.

My brother is going through the rules of the Battlestar Galactica game. So we might get to play that sometime also. Now I don't really feel like playing. But maybe I can force myself.

It still hurts in my tounge from grinding on the teeth. I hate that. I can't eat my apricot seeds. Because it just hurts. The tumour is taking up more and more space in my mouth so there's smaller room available for my tounge. And I have no painkiller for that. I used to have some sedative for the mouth. Maybe I can ask the doctor tommorrow about that.

I also have more it difficult to swallow liquids..because of the tumour growing back down my throat. Probably the left side of my throat doesn't work the way it should so sometimes when I drink I suck it into my lungs or something like that and just cough everything out. But I'll have to live with it and get used to it. It frightens me mostly that I notice differences from day to day.

I can't let things go. My ESD mat installation and the grounding installation in this house is so bad. And I just want a simple answer. Is my ESD mat installation good? Does it works as intented? Or it is completly dangerous as some people say.

Other people say, don't worry, you have a common ground for all your equipment. It is the way it should be.

While others say I need a good connection to earth ground, and my radiators should also be earth grounded. Otherwise it is useless.

My ground in my power strip is floating. It is no better than the wireless esd wriststrap. But there is no way I can install proper grounding in this whole house. I need to tear down walls and rewire the entire electrical system... would there be something that I can do locally near my workbench that would make it a safer and better place.

Some people say. The chassis if some equipment could get live and cause damage.. well how... if I was measuring with my ground pin to a live wire? Hmm...

I can't let the problems with my Neato just go. I have to investigate,  try over and over and over until I finally know what is wrong with it. I NEED to be alone when doing this. Because everything else just disturbs me. My guests want to play games.. I want to play games with them too. But it is so difficult when things doesn't work as intented. It will keep bugging my mind until I got a clear logical answer. Then I can leave it behind.

Maybe I'll need to build another robot, a babysitter robot for my Neato that pushed the resume button all the time.

...ew,  the marley drink was red and had a little smokey taste to it. But very very sweet. But it was drinkable. Maybe a taste of raspberry or something. Nah, not too bad. Just a little bit too sweet for my taste.

Neato XV Signature Pro - House Cleaning Paused

I noticed today that the robot stops at exactly the same place everytime it says "House cleaning - paused". Strange.

But I have never had the patience to wait and see if it starts automatically again. If it is for overheating problems or battery problems. I made a power cycle on it,  moved it back to the station. Then it said the batteries was too low. Is it a battery calibration error again?

I must know. I can't just leave it. I have to know what ia wrong. Or if there is nothing wrong. It is so important for me that I can't sleep at night if I don't fix it.

I will have to simulate the error again. And actually wait it out next time. And not loose my patience. I know that my old one stopped once and then started again for no particular reason.

What is the point of having an automatic vacuum cleaner if I cannot leave it alone at home alone. If it needs constant babysitting.

The first one I had ran fine up until now. So therefore I suspect overheating could be an issue in this new one. It is quite warm now in the summer.

It stopped once this second cleaning cycle. It found ita way back to the charger correctly. Something I didn't think about before is the radiator.

The radiators does not seem to be connected to mains ground. While, there is no mains ground in any of the outlets except the ones near the sink in the kitchen. The radiator piping is most probably connected down into earth. And from my understanding this is a good way to get a zero potential ground... But really, I have not much understanding about earth and grounding and RCDs... in my tiny electronics projects, ground can be anywhere you define it to be.

Playing Chinatown with my brother and my mother.

Compared to when I played with my friends, it was quite a calm game this time :)

But still lots of fun. My brother won with over 1.5million. I got 1million 70thousand. I don't remember what mom got.

Today in the morning I wrote that I didn't really wanted people here today. But I changed my mind. It felt good to meet my brother. And we had fun, and I hope they will stay a few more days.

Also my Neato cleaned my apartment once without stopping. Maybe he got scared when I said that I was going to replace it :) If it keeps working like this now. I'm not replacing it. Maybe...

Testing my new Corsair K70 RGB Cherry MX Red in Linux

The drivers I installed seems to work perfect, get from here or from GitHub

And another setting :)