A bit scared

I notice no difference from the radiation therapy so far.

I am a little bit scared of a part of the tumour that grows back towards my throat. Sometimes when I lie down I only have a small hole to breath through. Maybe that is why I wake up so often at night. Difficulty breathing.:(

...oh I almost fell asleep while writing, and then I dreamed that I kept writing...

Anyway, I started a new period of taking betapred (cortisone) to make me more alert during the day. All the other medication makes me so tired.

I use the blogger app for Android. It sucks. It is so difficult to add images. I want to wake up now. I don't have the energy to make coffe. I'll take some Red Bull. And apricot seeds.

It has been getting more difficult to drink I think. When I close my mouth and swallow like normal, sometimes everything just spouts out. The tumour takes up most of the space in my mouth. I can drink with the right technique.